a sorta strange thing happened last friday... it's been just over two months since the camdogg has moved on and there have been a couple of occasions that i had mentioned at d'monkey re how it seemed that i'd been able to get some of my equilibrium back regarding the loss. There was a tough few minutes at my local video rental emporium a couple of weeks back, i was idly perusing the selection of titles available and a woman came up and introduced herself by way of reminding me she lived across the street (that necessary in a way as she & her husband were sort of newly arrived in our neighborhood) and she pointedly asked after the camdogg; "she's the sweetest dog" she kept saying, "and i haven't seen her around lately" and then in that moment when i had to tell her what happened, damn, tears welled up, big ol' choked up throat, and we had to bag ass outta there... on Friday? i've a co-worker who retired a year or so ago, but likes to come in still, and is allowed to work a light P/T schedule, which is cool, no? anyway, he is always asking if i'd seen any good movies, my opinion on this & that, and somehow the subject of dogs came up and he asked "hey, you have a dog, don't you?" well, it wasn't right then, 'cause i was able to say that my ol'pal had parted this vale of tears, but a co-worker on the opposite side of me (who'd been away on holiday when Cam died) overheard and interrupted "John, you say your doggie died?" and then that's when it happened again. i think my response has something to do with sensing a particular sort of sympathetic vibration from the person making the inquiry because i have run into a couple of folks who've made the same sort of inquiry to me and (the reason why i thought i was getting a handle on it) i handled their kind questions with aplomb & equanimity, but in both these other episodes, friday's in particular, i know these people in a much more personal way, & their interest was of genuine concern. The phone rang and i had to suck it up, lucky it was an advertiser who loves to hear themself talk, so i had the opportunity to get it together...

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